Awkward

Awkward!

“And the LORD, He it is that doth go before thee; He will be with thee, He will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed.”   Deuteronomy 31:8 (KJV)

Awkward

Sometimes life just feels like it is going on auto-pilot, doesn’t it? I seemed to be at one of those time periods where, even in the valley, life went on in very scary mundane way. I would look down at the ground once in a while to check for those “footprints in the sand” but even that had gotten kinda…eh. However, a few months ago it wasn’t like that, nope not at all. It was like a great fury as I was coming down the mountain. I was fired from a job that I didn’t like, but got one that I like. AMEN!!! And it was on that momentum that I did something that I thought was a wise thing to do. UH-OH….

I thought I was way too deep with ministry commitments and decided that one aspect had to go immediately, if not sooner. My position was clear, what I was doing wasn’t spirit-driven any longer and it felt more like trending out the grain than ministry. I explained my position to the pastor of the church, who didn’t appreciated the suddenness of my decision (yeah, I’ll give him that), vocalized it and at the end of a heated decision I was told that for all I know I may not be saved, ouch. Didn’t see that coming, didn’t like being told that, left the church and everything that I was involved with behind. And then life seemed to get…awkward.

Anyway, I have landed in a church that is very, very Bible based. The inerrant Word of God is being preached. Everyone there sings with such volume and grace. And if I can be so bold to say that the doors of this church are as open as the doors of the congregation hearts. The communion elements are revered, and served by the church elders, everything a Baptist would expect to see church be (yeah, kinda like the Baptist way I do) and yet I sat there feeling awkward. My God, My God! I guess I’m just part of the congregation now? hmph…wow, I wondered, did I take it too far?

Well God wasn’t having any of my “woo is me” nonsense and I found myself at the Colony Chapel on the grounds of America’s Keswick during a Families for Christ weekend. I was surrounded by brothers and sisters who I grew up with (I wasn’t always a Christian ya know) and all that awkwardness fell by the wayside. At the end of Sunday service Pastor John Strain asked me to lead the congregation in the saying of the Colony benediction , “And the LORD, He it is that doth go before thee; He will be with thee, He will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed.”

Whether he knows it or not (he reads Freedom Fighters, he knows by now) I needed to do that. Not so much to lead people into saying it as much as hearing God’s people saying it with agreement to it. When we got to the part where God says FEAR NOT it was everything I could do to shout it out loud. You see it is a promise from God that hasn’t changed one dot or tittle. I forgot it…dummy that I am. I forgot the “FEAR NOT” and because of that God allowed me to feel the awkwardness of my action until I remembered His promise.

Since that moment in the Colony Chapel that awkwardness has begun to leave me and a “FEAR NOT” has settled in. The Deuteronomy 31:8 Promise signifies that a man can never be of good courage, unless he is persuaded of God’s assistance. No matter the number and strength of an enemy, nor at any difficulties that might lie in the way of finishing any undertakings. In a very Romans 8:31 way we should be able to ask, “What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” I’m just glad that sharing this with all of you doesn’t leave me feeling…awkward. Amen? – Chris Hughes is a graduate of the Colony of Mercy and is a weekly Freedom Fighter blogger

Daily Bible Reading: Isaiah 42-44

Think About This:“I must confess that in my ministry I keep repeating some of the things I know about God and His faithful promises. Why do I insist that all Christians should know for themselves the kind of God they love and serve? It is because all the promises of God rest completely upon His character.”—A.W. Tozer

This Week’s Verse to Memorize: It is good to give thanks to the Lord, And to sing praises to Your name, O Most High;To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning, And Your faithfulness every night. Psalm 92:1-2

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